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Emily
21 January 2009 @ 09:30 pm
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 LIVEJOURNAL! sup?

ps: that entry right down below this one... I am doing that with my life right now. I'd like to give myself a pat on the back for following through with long-term goals. for now.
 
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Emily
10 May 2007 @ 11:12 pm
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My Future:


i've discovered what i want to do in life. its turning me on a little.

ps: how do you make a(n) lj cut?
 
 
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: iron&wine
 
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Emily
17 April 2007 @ 03:43 pm
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hello livejournal.

this is a collaborative post from emily and janie.

we decided that everyone is too moody and dramatic and fake, just like in general, like humanity.
and we don't like it.

put your ass on the floor, d-d-d-down to the floor.

guys call us when they(apostrophy)re freaky hot. [(i wish)].


brackettttts

rantssss




SANTA CRUZ THIS WEEKEND!!!!! SO FUCKING "STOKED" - me being californian. im catching on.

but seriously, santa barbcruz
minus the barb bc i dont think were going there.

uh um oooh, uh, jamie or chris should take janie's shift on saturday, she would like everyone to know. no? know. knoooooow.


s'allllll right.

we're [we(apostrophy)re] off to da mall. like girls! 

bye.
sincerely,
emily&janie (&co.)



 
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Emily
11 April 2007 @ 08:29 pm
woahh!! emily's posting on livejournal!?!  

hey. i thought i would update, even though im not going to give a real update.

i got a camera! yay!
my computer doesnt have enough space to download the software. boo.

life is good so far. some minor adjustments could be made. but thats just me being picky. (that was the line of livejournal lingo.)  ((that was alliteration.))

i like weekends. what are we doing on this one?



:-P

 
 
Current Music: im humming "witness"
 
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Emily
09 December 2006 @ 11:59 am
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we now know the true answer to who will survive most in this competitive animalistic galaxy.
fight
 
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Emily
26 November 2006 @ 10:20 pm
slower  
It's been so long since I've been by myself
And I need this more than you will ever know
People like you and me never feel the breeze
People like you and me will never know the easy way

I scream into the wind and laugh
As the words slap me in hte face
I would gladly trade a lifetime of convenience
For and honest day or two

It's just not the same when you're staring
Into a perfect golden sunset
And thinking about how you sold your soul
To send the rain away

It's been so long since I've stood on my two feet
I'd really rather lay here and pretend
But people like you and me never get that peace
It comes from denying that everything is so screwed up
It's so screwed up

I stand on a building and throw up my arms to the sky
I swallow my pride and admit
That it's not always best to understand the reason why

It's just not the same when you wake up in the morning
With a smile on your face
When you know you lied yourself to sleep to make it better
To make it better




.....
beautiful lyrics. but besides that, my life is pretty okay for now :-P
 
 
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: mineral
 
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Emily
24 November 2006 @ 10:58 pm
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car crash.
 
 
Current Mood: thankful.
 
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Emily
23 November 2006 @ 01:00 am
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dear livejournal,

long time no see.

love,
emily


ps:
(this is the real post)
i dont know why but i suddenly was like, livejournal is meaningless, but so is life, im gonna make a livejournal post.

this is where i [unimportantly] talk about my day:
this morning i brushed my teeth. jk i wont go into that much detail. and i dont mean jk on brushing my teeth.. i did brush them.
anyway, i just got back from hanging out with chelsea, ted, and lanette. we had coffee and stuff.
im thinking of applying to a fashion internship, ya know, just incase the chemist idea doesnt work out for me.

this is the venting portion:
my moms a psycho bitch (cliche if you didnt actually know her). i walked out last night and went to my dads house. there could be more venting if i really cared anymore.

this is the vague livejournal-esque part:
i guess he doesnt care.. it never works out and people shouldnt talk about shit they arent involved with.
just kidding theres no guy or rumors, i just thought id throw it in for livejournals and the publics sake. everyone likes a little drama.
aka my attempt at humor.

i think ive lost it.

humor and my mind that is.

just kidding my mind is fine.

i am sane. like straws.. that aren't crazy. (mitch hedberg refference, anyone?) (spelling mistakes, anyone?)

that was also my rambling portion of this livejournal post. this post has it all.

except a good ending.
 
 
Current Mood: content
Current Music: tosca
 
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Emily
12 September 2006 @ 12:47 am
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jgfkhfgliuesiop

who agrees?
 
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Emily
10 September 2006 @ 12:42 am
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i haven't updated in a while. ive been sick lately (not why i havent updated). what bad timing.. right in the beginning of school. i dont even know where to start with my work.

this is my venting portion (you knew you weren't going to miss my posts for too long):

i feel like im living in a movie. a drama, maybe. or maybe i want to live in a movie. maybe i want things to work out like they do at the end of movies, progress like they do. maybe, i dont know.

i dont know a lot of things having to do with my emotions lately. even though i just took an online quiz and apparently i have an EQ (emotional intelligence quotient) of 153. that means ive "out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil"! (im also an expert kisser, should die my hair orange, and im not japanese)

my mom is unbearable; i feel like i cant breathe.

today i watched tv (all ive been doing for the past week), then went for a walk and ran into (or rather, walked into) caroline and brendan. i should have known id see someone i know at the powerlines. i was actually thinking it when i was walking through the fields.

then i went home, and turned around before i came to the door, and decided to walk some more (im a poet, btw). i walked another half hour in the other direction. i was kind of sad and i couldnt place it. i tried to think of something else.

when i got home, my mother was worried (of course). then i watched rent with my brother, who asked questions every 5 seconds that couldve been answered if he was watching the movie instead of asking me questions. that grammar doesnt sound correct.

then my mom started yelling about volume (irony?), as usual and i stopped the movie and walked out. she followed me and was screaming down the streets "what did i do, i dont understand, im trying to understand, emily come back, emily tell me where youre going, im trying to understand, etc". there were people on those streets, talk about making a scene. i finally yelled back "you'll never understand!". cliche teenage drama? sounds it. its really not though. anyway..

she eventually caught up. i ran. she cried. i stopped. i talked to her about stuff, wont go into deatils (even though if youre reading this, ive bored you so far with agonizing details).

i came home, took off my bra, grabbed a towel and laid outside on the driveway, infront of the road listening to everlong (the acoustic version duhh) on repeat for about an hour.

did 100 sit ups. seems routine.

and i contemplate.
maybe i feel like my life is a movie because i feel i should get credit for the dramatic things in my life. maybe i want it to be a movie because i feel like theres something missing. something that is always fulfilled in a script, in a day dream. 

ive been out of school for a week. a couple of friends have called me. a couple haven't..

i know that theres really no purpose in life, but if im going to live it anyway, i might as well put as much meaning into it as i can, for myself at least.
maybe im just looking for something to mean something.
 
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Emily
21 August 2006 @ 12:57 am
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yesterday i:

went to the city and saw maddy! for like the first time in about 2 years. she's so cute.

we:

went to a street fair, bought a lot of random shit. stopped to look at some art on the street, met the artist. Rico Fonseca. he wanted to be my boyfriend and paint me. 

[he explained this one was about seeing a waterfall and wanting to find where it was coming from. so he climbed the cliff to see the root of the falling water and came upon spirits, climbing to some important destination. the image was created from a dream he once had.]
then we went to "the tea spot" and got some bubble tea. delicious.
then we went to central park. it rained. we laid down on the bridge and took pictures and wrote poetry. then played on the swings.

back at meredith's we all:

smoked. went to a hookah bar.
this time they were nazis and only let us in because meredith accidentally flashed the guy carding us. when we left he was really pervy and told her next time if she wanted to get in shed need to wear something more "summery" and gestured to a lowcut shirt. 
creepy.
we ate a lot.

today i:

woke up. went to a show with meredith, my dad, brother, g-ma, g-pa. "a jew grows in brooklyn". so boring. like i can not describe to you how boring this show was. its a one man show, telling his (uninteresting) life as a jew growing up in brooklyn. of course my grandma cried.
china town. good food, good china men. 

now:
waking up from a glorious nap and updating livejournal.



ps: i miss my friends
Anchorless321: bitch
Anchorless321: get the fuck back here
Anchorless321: or else, im gonna go over there
Anchorless321: and beat you up.
Anchorless321: and then maybe rape you.
Anchorless321: and then probably put it on the internet.
Anchorless321: and masturbate to it everynight.
Anchorless321: and then i'll film that
Anchorless321: and put it on the internet
Anchorless321: and give a link to your mom.
Anchorless321: and then probably rape her too.
Anchorless321: repeat.

me and alex in a nut shell:
painting x you: if i went out half the time you did id feel like i was such an adventurous person
Anchorless321: yeah, well, if i slept half as much as you did id feel like a really old person with cancer

 
 
Current Music: sufjan stevens
 
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Emily
18 August 2006 @ 09:22 pm
get straight, wait here while i try to find the exit sign  
oh world.

yesterday i slept til 5 pm. someone kept me up the night before.

My cousin is going to binghamton in a couple of days and her mom let her throw a party. so, last night was pretty fun. except when people would ask me why i was so quite. why cant anyone get any peace nowadays? 

why must we all be so loud?

im at my grandma's now. i slept for like 6 hrs. well not really, but pretty close. meaning like 3 hrs.

i love sleep.
i dream too much.

im about to go to the movies (im sure you're all wondering) with my grandparents. then we're gonna pick my dad and brother up at the airport.

i kind of miss my dad.
my brother, not so much.

i wish i was going home sooner.

vacations are pretty kewl though, i guess.

gee-tee-gee.


edit:
little miss sunshine was very good. go see it.
 
 
Current Music: metric - the police and the private
 
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Emily
16 August 2006 @ 12:04 am
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so dani and allie are pretty cute. today we hung out at allie's pool and went to see John Tucker Must Die. actually, a very cute movie. enjoyed the movie more than i thought i would. very good.

new york has been fun. 
i love me some friends.

i miss someone.
it makes me want to go back to california.
(vaguely livejournal-esque?)

anyway, im excited for the adventures to come. 
comment if you miss me.
(im gonna get no comments- its gonna be really sad ahha)
 
 
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: metric
 
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Emily
13 August 2006 @ 05:37 pm
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im so hungry.
but i cant eat. because im getting skinny. i just got back from the spa.

tuesday i see dani and allie!! yayyyy!

give me food.

my camera has no more storage space and i dont know what to do! i need to take more pictures.  :(

maybe! no.

i love my grandma to death but sometimes i have no patience for her. she doesnt have good hearing so having a conversation with her can get really frustrating.

i hate bras.
 
 
Current Location: g-ma's crib
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: the mars volta
 
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Emily
10 August 2006 @ 09:25 pm
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tagged by Janie (edit: and chelsea): Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with six random facts about yourself. In the end you need to choose six people to be tagged and list their names.

1. i just started to write in a journal, but i lost it on the plane to ny. now the world knows my deepest darkest secrets.
2. when i was younger i used to think everything in numbers. i would have this number chart in my head and everything would have to be done evenly or oddly, depending on which felt right at the moment. still to this day, when ever i eat food in quantities, like popcorn or fries, i compulsively eat more because the numbers throw me off. ocd?...
3. im not slutty, but if i let myself actually do what i wanted to, i probably would be. holding myself back prevents me from being a flirtatious person. 
4. my parents are getting a divorce. my mom has probable borderline personality disorder. those two facts get to share a number.
5. ive never had a real boyfriend because i think meaningless ones are pointless to have, and those were the only possible relationships thrown at me.
6. my dad and my grandma are my favorite people.              i tag ..alex and caroline, if they haven't done it already. everyone else has already done this, so screw choosing six.        btw, the enter key is broken on my cousin's computer. so are most of the keys. its pretty hard to type this. anyway, my cousins are bickering. oh sibling rivalry.. ny is way fun so far. i got way too fucked up last night though haha. kind of made a fool of myself to someone. or maybe its all in my head. idk.. im paranoid about useless things. my cousin is so angsty. what a teen. were going to a karaoke bar soon sooo bye!
 
 
Current Mood: optimistic
 
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Emily
08 August 2006 @ 11:34 am
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im leaving for ny in about an hour.

my mommy made me some chicken fingers for the plane ride but i just ate two of them. =-O theyre so good.

im going to be in nyc with my cousins until friday and then im going to a health spa for the weekend with my grandma upstate. then on monday im going to a camp friend (dani)'s house. then im going to the city again at the end of the week to see a play with my dad and grandma and the rest of my family or whoevers coming. 

ill be there until the 23rd.

dont miss me too much guys.
i know ill miss you ;)

edit:
i just got my red shoes back! im so happy.

 
 
Current Mood: excited
 
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Emily
06 August 2006 @ 10:51 pm
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i hate spiders.

yesterday was pretty cute. me and brendan hung out at the powerline fields. then alex joined us. then we went to albertsons to get food. and then went back to the fields and had a picnic. then me and alex went to lns. then we went bakc to alexs and had a tub party with soem more people. it was cute. i left earlier than i would have liked because of some miscommunication with my dad. my daddys cute. 

today i went to the beach (for the first time all summer! -besides at night). i started reading franny and zoey. i dont care what the reviews are, i really liked it. it got me thinking. about the existance of god, human nature, relationships, and then about myself. i began to feel really lonely.  all my hidden emotions surfaced and it made me really upset. then i talked to alex and felt a little better. i just dont really feel close with anyone at the moment. theres too much distance. why do people feel they need to distance themselves to stay safe?

im still not completely over it. i need to hang out with friends and be comfortable and just sit and be bored and miserable with someone whos bored and miserable too.

im going to ny on tuesday. im pretty happy about that. even though im going to miss spending time with my friends here.

plane letters, people. just a reminder. even though i know you all remembered anyway, because im that loved.

the summer is nearing its end, and the wind is carrying the news. it was chilly at the beach today. thats kind of upsetting.

oh well, im going to be an upper classman soon. weird.
QUADIES!! yeyuh.

im oddly excited about school i guess. maybe ill do better this year. hopefully.

im hopeful.
maybe too hopeful. (about more than school.)

im off to go pack some more. goodbye for now, world of live journal.
 
 
Current Music: mars volta
 
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Emily
29 July 2006 @ 12:03 am
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just got back from claires bonfire. of course i have to update my lj about it. duh.
it was good times.
we were with denmark cuties. (cousins of claire?)
we played 10 fingers. classic bonfire game. or classic anytime game for that matter.
we ate s'mores. we just kept havin' s'more and more! ah. im funny.
chris and I talked for real rather than watching eachother from a far.
sloan wants to kill you.
janie can demonstate a cartweel for you, but not actually do one. i totally can...
we saw jesus lovers and fire twirlers.
thats just about it for the recap.
goodnight kids.

 
 
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Emily
28 July 2006 @ 07:20 pm
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i hate when people are flakey and blow me off *cough cough*.

whatever, im just going to go to a friends bonfire instead.

i need to go on more dates. if you want to date me give me your number.

hookah with chelsea and some other people maybe tomorrow. fuuun.

that wasn't sarcastic. im reading it over now and it sounds kind of sarcastic. but its not.

im gonna go put on a mask (aka "some makeup").


soon.

edit:
that means plane letters!
come on people!
 
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Emily
25 July 2006 @ 07:08 pm
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im too lazy to post.

but i guess im not because i am.

i got a real journal the other day. ive decided i like to write down my thoughts, the ones i wouldnt let anyone else know. i never really realized how many secrets i have. i wish someone would ask me them specifically. id never lie. the trouble is though, im never sure what to write in it. like i guess i havent organized my thoughts yet into what should be put down on paper, what should be said, and what should be kept in my head. i need practice.

one thing i wrote down in my journal that i feel i can share is that i never could really tell what people (my friends) think about me. i can never tell whether theyre annoyed with me at the time or whether they actually want to hang out with me. its confusing and i guess im insecure. i feel maybe its because i dont know my current friends well enough. or maybe they dont know me well enough.  i just cant trust that i can trust them completely. i feel like people can turn on me any second. its paranoya, but its also being cautious from past experiences. i wish my friends would really express how they truely feel about me. maybe im being to skeptacle. but is it too much to know exactly how people feel about you? idk, maybe youre not suppose to know. but i wish i would. i just wish i knew if my friends liked me. am i crazy?

its too hot. typing is exhausting me. air conditioning is for the weak.

i watched 2 movies today. both of which sucked majorly. especially the second one. failure to lauch (which is not a sexual enuendo as i thought) and the family stone. dont see them.

my mom has bad taste in movies.
whatever. i need things like that to fill up my time here.

i saw brendan in trador joe's earlier. i dont like seeing friends on surprise. nothing against brendan. it was cool to see him for a second though, i guess.

i got a 94% on my us history test today.
im not friends with anyone is my class. it kind of makes me sad during group activities.

its only tuesday. but im excited for the weekend and for my upcoming trip to ny on the 8th. yayyy.

i didnt clean up my quiche. now my mommys mad.
shes making me label my water.

even though ive been subtly (or not) venting, life is all together okay.

love, me
 
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